Usually, these little updates on my life will be comedic. At least, that’s how I intend to approach them. I had this whole plan of opening my series of blogs by humorously comparing writing this blog to shouting into the void. I’ve abandoned that plan. Because right at this moment, I not only want to shout to the void that is the internet, I need to.
A few days ago, our horse Tjisse (pronounced Chissa) had trouble walking. He moved as if the ground was too hot for him. It was assumed that he had laminitis, which has to do with suddenly eating lush grass after a long period of hay. Today, we learned he in fact had Sidewinder, a neurological disease. His back legs literally could not support his weight. He could not stand, and as horses can only digest food standing up, he literally couldn’t live that way. As of a couple of hours ago, he had to be put down. He was 23.
It was sudden, completely unexpected. In fact, we were in the process of building a barn and fence so that he could stay on our property, instead of living down the street. He literally died right before he would get to live with us fully. My mother is devastated (He was her baby). We all are. We lost a member of the family that has been with us since I was 3. It is hard to articulate my feelings right now, as they are a muddled mess of shock and denial. So, over the next couple of weeks, I will be posting stories about his life to honor him and keep his memory fresh in my mind. So keep on the lookout for that.